Have you ever seen those crazy TV shows that put skinny women in fat suits and make them walk around downtown to see how people react. They always seem to be the ugliest women in the world but anyway..... When I look in the mirror that's what I see. I feel like this outgoing amazing women trapped in a FAT suit. I just wish there was a zipper that I could pull and step out of it.
I know life just isn't that simple and it is going to take hard work to get there. Maybe seeing myself out of that suit and looking inward is going to be the key.
For now the invisible # I wear on my clothes is pretty low. I am going to challenge myself to try and see the creation that God as created (me) and that's it's just not what I see in the mirror but what I portray from the inside out.
I know that my insecurity will probably always be there, but when it starts to impact my relationships and stopping myself from living life that's when I need to take a step back and say listen girl get over it. You rock and this is who you are for the rest of your life so you better start liking it!! (I don't mean the outside) but the entire package.
My daily challenge for you today is:
What invisible # do you wear?
What will it take to see yourself at the # that God sees? (It's a 10 by the way)
****Just on a side note. I have to recommended an amazing drink I had last night. It was Waves steamed skim milk and sugar free hazel nut. They make the milk really thick almost like a whip cream!!!**** thanks to Heather for the recommendation
4 comments:
I think I know what you are saying.... Try seeing limitless potential when you look at yourself (10+?). I believe that is what God sees and what he yearns for. Not a number between one and ten. Much like the love of a parent should have no limit. However, God's love is unimaginably greater for us, a perfect love we can not yet totally comprehend or understand.
Don't define yourself, at least not that way. I am not saying its not okay to get excited about a goal. 3lbs is great by the way. But it needs to be about your health and not because you think it will make you love/like yourself that much more. You do not eat because you are overweight/unattractive. You eat because it is easier than dealing with the real issues in your life. "Comfort food." as they say. You just made a bad choice, and have continued to make bad choices, until it became an addiction. It could also be a genetic thing. Not everyone can look like a supermodel without killing themselves. First you need a medical opinion from a good doctor. Is your goal a reasonable and healthy expectation? Is it the way you eat, and how much you eat, or is it something else, physically speaking?
With respect to the addiction, that's not going to be fixed overnight. Your brain needs to be reprogrammed. Change your habits, change your snacks, change you meals, if they are not healthy. Its all about balance. Log your calorie intake. Plan your calorie intake according to your daily calorie burn. Make these changes gradually. And remember, "Diets Alone Don't Work!" You have to deal with the rest of the baggage you carry too. May be that is what is really weighing you down.
And whatever you do, try not do the number rating thing. It does not work that way, I think you know that, that's what you meant by "10". Just do the best you can, and leave the rest to God.
And by the way, Kris does not see a number when he looks at you, and those who really love you do not either. So please try and stop before you take on the rest of it. "One step forward, two steps back." ;LOL
I totally agree that so many..actually it is probably most of us don't see us the way our Father sees us, or how others see us. For me the biggest revelation in my life that helped me starting to accept who I am was understanding the Father better and understanding and really getting that I am His favorite! yup we are all His favorites He loves us no matter what...even if we never change..totally takes the pressure off when you realize how simple it is. Doesn't mean I don't have times when I still struggle with what I see in the mirror cuz I do but it is getting way easier!
big hugs girl you are on the right track!!
YOU are an amazing BEAUTIFUL women of God and you are a perfect 10 in HIS eyes and the eyes of your friends!! Thank-you for sharing your heart and all your struggles ... know that all your friends are praying for you!
Rachel, I am so proud of you!!! You are so brave to be blogging all of your "junk"! You are challenging all of us to "face our giants" and we all have them!! Thank you for you honesty and you vulnerability! You are truly amazing and beautiful from the inside out!! I am praying for you as you embark on this journey, and I know that it will be a success for you...I am excited for you!! I love you and miss you so much, again, thank you for being you and no one else!!!
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